lalalalalife!

YAY - so Betty chewed my rear out yet again for talking to my friend at work - saying as soon as mel walks into the room my work slows WAY down.....maybe it does maybe it doesn't i don't know. Im not really dwelling on it much because in all honesty as much as my boss grates me, i kinda feel bad for her. She seems miserable and tired - she's always reaming on someone over the littlest details - like which knife to use when dicing tomatoes or how to brown hamberger. I see a lack of Christ in her life, as with most of my employees. I just don't know how to reach out to them - and maybe mel and i can team up idk. but im not doing enough thats for sure!

Worship music is so filling to me right now - like its quenching my spiritual thirst but at the same time making me want more! Its awesome. There are so many songs that speak to my heart like be thou my vision and broken and beautiful, how deep the fathers love for us, jesus lover of my soul,....there are so many that the list could go on and on and on and on.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1rqb1BG4JU is a new fav for sure its My Jesus by Todd Agnew.

oh and the water works always start up with this one: everything by lifehouse
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA

On my walk today i randomly picked flowers and leaves off trees and bushes of various color shape and size.....and just thought - "wow - Im holding creation in my hand" How cool is it to think that no one can duplicate the lilac - sure we can plant the seeds but if we to really make our own lilac then we would need to create the dirt and the water. I look around at the mountains the over flowing creeks and flourishing plants, the baby calves in the green pastures, the blue of the sky and the floofy clouds - and i am in awe. Driving takes so much out of life - we can't leisurly stop to smell the flowers or pop a squat next to a river jsut to listen to the movement of the water. Generally we are in a hurry to get somewhere when we are in a car - no time for dittle dattlying. now im thinking how i take my eyes, ears and legs for granted. I mean try to imagine waking up and you can't see or hear a thing - a childs face, watch your favorite tv show. so much for being i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t.

speaking about taking things for granted - im looking around my room and i have a ton of junk. clothes i never wear, shoe boxes full of papers i never look at, desk drawers filled with odds and ends that i can't seem to find a use for - earlier this week i compiled a list of things i have in my room that i really don't need the lists is as follows:

~my bed
~my dresser
~my desk
~my mini fridge
~my bean bag chair

now i know some people would disagree with my - like my dad. I don't need a bed - ask the high school basketball team from two years ago - i sleep pretty darn hard on an old dirty wood covered cement floor during basketball practice. my clothes can hang in my closet or be neatly folded and placed in boxes on the self. my desk only holds junk currently anyway so its just taking up space. i never sit in my chair and the fridge hasn't been plugged in once since december. Simplicity. Im starting to buy my clothes from second hand stores like Ross, Sacks and Salvation Army....I still get my dress clothes from the mall tho. My dad reacted like it was my right to have all these things like i earned it or something when the truth of the matter is luck. Im blessed to have enough money to have a bed - to go to the doctor - to get my teeth straightened out.

Okay that's enough for now - im out! PEACE