They are so lost, like a child straying away from his father. Actually that's exactly what has happend. My friend's are God's children, his creation and they don't acknowledge that, they don't even understand what that means. For them it would be being accepted, loved unconditionally, God doesn't see them as "fuck ups" or "worthless pieces of shit". It would mean hope, real hope. It would mean a future, something to live for. One of them is searching, he's so close but keeps falling short - no one knows what I mean better than my girl Mel, she knows better than I do. So Im sure the pain in my heart is only a fraction of what she's feeling in her's.
My other friend is so far, he knows somethings missing in his life - but he wont explore it, not even question it. Instead he just tries to fill the void by ignoring it, with relationships he calls "love", giving his all to his family and friends for nothing in return. His fix is a handful of rolaids and immodium. He pushes himself over his breaking point and is still holding on, and fighting. I just wonder how much longer he's got that fight in him because he's losing. He's losing his health and his strength. And he's only 26.
God knows their hearts better then they do, He knows the point at which they will surrender and turn to Christ on the cross, and that's where my hope is at, what I'm praying for. What I cry over, why my heart breaks.
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thanks rach that was amazing. it's so awesome to see what God is teaching you. us, actually. :) last night i went for like an hour and a half or two hour walk, just praising God. i walked through the cemetary too, it reminded me of how fragile life is. and to think of all of those people's lives and what was accomplished... and where they are now.
it's so cool to see how much you care about our friends and everyone, and how you are striving after God. keep it up!
and that picture... it's a really true representation of what you wrote about.
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