If I only had meat and a hammer......

I'm frustrated. People are so lazy. I am lazy. With that said I will start my rant: I watch the show Jon and Kate plus 8. Most people have read the tabloids, seen the news. I think it's crap that this family may be breaking up - I want to sit them down and shake sense into them. I don't know if the affairs on either side have been confirmed to be true and honestly.....it's none of my business. They profess to be Christians but I feel like they have and are losing sight of what God has called them to be as parents. If I could I would direct them to Ephesians 5, Colossians, 1 Corinthians 13 as well as other passages. I want them to think about the vows they made to each other before God.

On another note.....Does anyone take the Bible seriously anymore? Does anybody read it and think "I actually need to change and start obeying God and the commands he's layed out for me" or do we all just attend church on Sundays with the thought "I have fullfilled my religious duty." For me, no. I don't read my Bible enough thus I don't take it seriously further effecting my view of God which is currently small and unglorifying to someone so awesome and loving that I can't concieve in my mind his love and patience. It's all crap too I mean seriously, we slap the Creator of the world, the sun, the snow, trees, air, bugs, you and me and everything across the face when we don't take him seriously, when we reject him, when we are proud.

Romans 2:13
For merely listening to the law doesn't make us right with God. It is obeying the law that makes us right in his sight.

truth

It's late and I can't sleep. I have so much on my mind right now about this past week.

I've been fighting with mom alot, over everything and anything. We definately don't have the picture perfect mother-daughter relationship that you see in movies, probably because it's in movies.

Tonight I was reading through Colossians and I was convicted. 3:1-17 is a bunch of commands, putting to death deeds of the flesh because they bring the wrath of God and are the ways of the old unregenerate condition. To clothe myself with compassion, kindness, humility. To forgive like Christ forgave and continues to forgive me and be thankful.

This book has also filled me with reminders and encouragement. Chapter 1:12 "giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light." I don't deserve this incredible love and I did nothing to merit myself, everything is from my Creator, my Savior.

I'm just amazed by the faithfulness and fervent love God has for me and for all who accept Christ Jesus as the Son of God who died on the cross to pay for the sins of those who believe.

Beauty from Pain by SuperChick

The lights go out all around me

One last candle to keep out the night

And then the darkness surrounds me

I know i'm alive but i feel like i've died

And all that's left is to accept that it's over

My dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made

I try to keep warm but i just grow colder

I feel like i'm slipping away

After all this has passed, i still will remain

After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today,Someday i'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me

The best i can do is just get through the day

When life before is only a memory

I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place

And though i can't understand why this happened

I know that i will when i look back someday

And see how you've brought beauty from ashes

And made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has passed, i still will remain

After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today,Someday i'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

Here i am, at the end of me

Tryin to hold to what i can't see

I forgot how to hope

This night's been so long

I cling to Your promise

There will be a dawn

After all this has passed, i still will remain

After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today,Someday i'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

Today

Today I got two fish named them Bud and Light.....more to be obnoxious then as a tribute to alcohol, because I don't drink. Well, along with Light one of my snails died.....like 6 hours after I got them.....HAHA.

Happiest Millionaire is a great movie!! Good 'Ol clean classic musical fun!! "What's wrong with that? What's wrong with that?" Just think Marry Poppins or Sound of Music and you basically got the idea.

Colossians 2:6 and 7;
"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness."

I need to go find a job ASAP!

ps. got my ears pierced today.....no body knows HAHA its nothing big - just my second hole on both.