When I was younger I wanted to be a professional singer. I can't carry a tune to save my life and my little brother frequently reminds me of that to this day.
I also wanted to be a professional basketball player. I hyperextended my back to the point where I am at risk of herniating a disk and actually breaking my back. (I'm desperately avoiding cracks in the walkway at all costs)
My dreams became more realistic as I aged. I wanted to be a teacher, of P.E. or Algebra 1. My little brother helped me learn that teaching doesn't come naturally to me. This dream carried me through much of middle school and all most all of high school.
Senior year in Mr. Griffiths Human Geography class this changed. We watched a film about the genocide in Rowanda and something in me snapped to attention. I began to wonder how many of these men, women and children invovled died without knowing or hearing the Good News. I became grieved knowing the answer was many. I have wanted to go to Africa ever since.
At MSU, my major is focused on child health/services and developement. After taking Human Sexuality and learning about FGM (femail genital mutilation) an interest in women's studies has sparked and wanting to teach women in less developed countries about taking care of their bodies - and help these nations view women and girls more as equals and less like objects.
After MSU I want to persue Biblical teaching either at MBC here in Bozeman or at EBC in L.A.
Please visit this website if you would like to learn more about FGM. http://www.who.int/mediacentre/factsheets/fs241/en/
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Saturday, August 8, 2009
moving on
Moving has never settled well with me. While I'm used to moving I just don't like it, leaving good friends behind for a place with strangers and hundreds of unknowns. Get me in a situation like that and I don't talk or look people in the eye. While I'm not the one moving, my heart still feels like it's being torn out and stepped on. I feel alone.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Are you ready?
Death is an ever present thought in my mind.
My great grams is 98 years old and was diagnosed with cancer recently, she wasn't responding to treatment so she was taken off of it. Her pain is unbearable....a month later my family is starting to believe she is giving up.
We will all die at some point for death is inevitable.
My great grams is 98 years old and was diagnosed with cancer recently, she wasn't responding to treatment so she was taken off of it. Her pain is unbearable....a month later my family is starting to believe she is giving up.
We will all die at some point for death is inevitable.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
i don't even know
have you ever had one of those moments when something happens and your response is "i don't even know..."?
its kinda the story of my life.
my friend copied some pictures for me so that i can give them to her as a going away gift and some of them...."i don't even know"
this pic reminds me of Coach Scanson....he is always having some sort of challenge or competition concerning food ie: how fast can he chug a glass of cold soda or eat a bowl of chips with no hands or the more popular 6 saltines in a minute.
you know the costco cakes with the frosting balloons? yea well on two seperate accounts i have ingested a balloon in one bite. :)
its kinda the story of my life.
my friend copied some pictures for me so that i can give them to her as a going away gift and some of them...."i don't even know"
this pic reminds me of Coach Scanson....he is always having some sort of challenge or competition concerning food ie: how fast can he chug a glass of cold soda or eat a bowl of chips with no hands or the more popular 6 saltines in a minute.
you know the costco cakes with the frosting balloons? yea well on two seperate accounts i have ingested a balloon in one bite. :)
Monday, June 8, 2009
survey time!!!
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage= chai
2. Last phone call= laura skillyman
3. Last text message= mel
4. last song you listened to= I Wont Disagree by Kate Voegelle
5. last time you cried= uhh...this morning - HEY Boy in the Striped Pajamas is a sad movie
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice= no
7. been cheated on= couldn't tall ya that one - but wouldn't put it past him
8. kissed someone and regretted it= no
9. lost someone special= yes
10. been depressed= no but very sad yes
11. been drunk and threw up= no
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. green
13. blue
14. orange
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = many!!!
16. Fallen out of love = no
17. Laughed until you cried= its me we are talking about
18. Met someone who changed you= fo sho
19. Found out who your true friends were= I'm still learning that one
20. Found out someone was talking about you= ....
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list= nada
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life= except for kaled...ive at met them at least once in person
23. How many kids do you want to have= lots :) at least 3 maybe 5
24. Do you have any pets =my pooch
25. Do you want to change your name= i used to
26. What did you do for your last birthday= uh....ate cake and quit my job
27. What time did you wake up today? a lil before 8:30
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for= Heaven
30. Last time you saw your Mother= 4 hours ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = um, how i bend over backwards for certain people
32. What are you listening to right now =pandora
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = cha tom wyckoff
34. What's getting on your nerves right now= things that aren't important
35. Most visited webpage=facebook, pandora
36. Whats your real name = rachel kathleen rehbein
37. Nicknames= bug, rach
38. Relationship Status = single
39. Zodiac sign =leo
40. Male or female? = female
41. Elementary? = i have been to 6
42. Middle School = sms and cjms
43. High school/College = Bozeman Senior High School/ MSU
44. Hair colour = my natural....plus a little darker brown
45. Long or short = medium wishing it was long
46. Height =6'
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = nope
48: What do you like about yourself? = my hair color
49. Piercings= ears
50. Tattoos = i want one
51. Righty or lefty= right
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = i was 7....got a skin graf
53. First piercing= soph year in hs
54. First best friend= don't really have 1
55. First sport you joined = soccer
56. First vacation= i don't even know
58. First pair of trainers = hmmm
RIGHT NOW
59. Eating = nothing
60. Drinking = nothing
61. I'm about to= go to bed!
62. Listening to = pandora
63. Waiting on = no one
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = chyea
65. Get Married? = yes
66. Career? = not sure
WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes= eyes
68. Hugs or kisses= hugs
69. Shorter or taller= taller.
70. Older or Younger = idk i love lil kids - their so carefree but old people are amazing
71. Romantic or spontaneous = both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = don't matter
73. Sensitive or loud = both
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant= both
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = no
77. Drank hard liquour = nope
78. Lost glasses/contacts = na
79. Sex on first date= heck NO
80. Broken someone's heart = i know i have hurt people
81. Had your own heartbroken = yea
82. Been arrested = no
83. Turned someone down = kinda...
84. Cried when someone died = duh
85. Fallen for a friend? = yes, didn't turn out so well.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = yes and no
87. Miracles= gotta have faith
88. Love at first sight = in movies
89. Heaven= for sure
90. Santa Claus = haha no
91. Kiss on the first date= ....depends
92. Angels=oh yea
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time= Nope
95. Did you sing today? = lol not well
96. ever cheated on somebody? = no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? = a year....i would take different classes my fresh year and try the dorm situation differently
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = idk
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = not sure
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = nope
now that thats over and done with i can get back to my life and go to sleep :)
1. last beverage= chai
2. Last phone call= laura skillyman
3. Last text message= mel
4. last song you listened to= I Wont Disagree by Kate Voegelle
5. last time you cried= uhh...this morning - HEY Boy in the Striped Pajamas is a sad movie
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice= no
7. been cheated on= couldn't tall ya that one - but wouldn't put it past him
8. kissed someone and regretted it= no
9. lost someone special= yes
10. been depressed= no but very sad yes
11. been drunk and threw up= no
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. green
13. blue
14. orange
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = many!!!
16. Fallen out of love = no
17. Laughed until you cried= its me we are talking about
18. Met someone who changed you= fo sho
19. Found out who your true friends were= I'm still learning that one
20. Found out someone was talking about you= ....
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list= nada
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life= except for kaled...ive at met them at least once in person
23. How many kids do you want to have= lots :) at least 3 maybe 5
24. Do you have any pets =my pooch
25. Do you want to change your name= i used to
26. What did you do for your last birthday= uh....ate cake and quit my job
27. What time did you wake up today? a lil before 8:30
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for= Heaven
30. Last time you saw your Mother= 4 hours ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = um, how i bend over backwards for certain people
32. What are you listening to right now =pandora
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = cha tom wyckoff
34. What's getting on your nerves right now= things that aren't important
35. Most visited webpage=facebook, pandora
36. Whats your real name = rachel kathleen rehbein
37. Nicknames= bug, rach
38. Relationship Status = single
39. Zodiac sign =leo
40. Male or female? = female
41. Elementary? = i have been to 6
42. Middle School = sms and cjms
43. High school/College = Bozeman Senior High School/ MSU
44. Hair colour = my natural....plus a little darker brown
45. Long or short = medium wishing it was long
46. Height =6'
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = nope
48: What do you like about yourself? = my hair color
49. Piercings= ears
50. Tattoos = i want one
51. Righty or lefty= right
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = i was 7....got a skin graf
53. First piercing= soph year in hs
54. First best friend= don't really have 1
55. First sport you joined = soccer
56. First vacation= i don't even know
58. First pair of trainers = hmmm
RIGHT NOW
59. Eating = nothing
60. Drinking = nothing
61. I'm about to= go to bed!
62. Listening to = pandora
63. Waiting on = no one
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = chyea
65. Get Married? = yes
66. Career? = not sure
WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes= eyes
68. Hugs or kisses= hugs
69. Shorter or taller= taller.
70. Older or Younger = idk i love lil kids - their so carefree but old people are amazing
71. Romantic or spontaneous = both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = don't matter
73. Sensitive or loud = both
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant= both
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = no
77. Drank hard liquour = nope
78. Lost glasses/contacts = na
79. Sex on first date= heck NO
80. Broken someone's heart = i know i have hurt people
81. Had your own heartbroken = yea
82. Been arrested = no
83. Turned someone down = kinda...
84. Cried when someone died = duh
85. Fallen for a friend? = yes, didn't turn out so well.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = yes and no
87. Miracles= gotta have faith
88. Love at first sight = in movies
89. Heaven= for sure
90. Santa Claus = haha no
91. Kiss on the first date= ....depends
92. Angels=oh yea
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time= Nope
95. Did you sing today? = lol not well
96. ever cheated on somebody? = no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? = a year....i would take different classes my fresh year and try the dorm situation differently
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = idk
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = not sure
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = nope
now that thats over and done with i can get back to my life and go to sleep :)
Sunday, June 7, 2009
more beautiful you
As Im getting older I'm realizing that some things matter more then others. Let me explain. I grew up with some pretty nasty achne and my parents never let me live it down. They would constantly make comments like "I see your picking at your face again" or "Are you washing your face? because your really breaking out" not once did they offer an encouraging word unless it was to remind me to wash my face. As I got older my face started to clear but i began to gain weight, and low and behold dad too noticed and didn't forget to let me know that i was looking "chubby" and "thick".
This was all too much for me to handle. I felt defeated, betrayed, alone and ugly. I actually started to eat differently infront of my dad, wear baggier clothes around him. I saw my self differently in the mirror and contemplated skipping a few meals. That was when I became grateful for my migranes because if I don't eat I get them amoungst many other triggers. But I began to realize that this is foolish - I shouldn't care what I look like on the outside...
Psalm 139: 14 was a new truth that helped me mend as well as the song More Beautiful You by Jonny Diaz
I wont lie saying that I'm 100 percent confident and comfortable with my appearance but I'm working on it
This was all too much for me to handle. I felt defeated, betrayed, alone and ugly. I actually started to eat differently infront of my dad, wear baggier clothes around him. I saw my self differently in the mirror and contemplated skipping a few meals. That was when I became grateful for my migranes because if I don't eat I get them amoungst many other triggers. But I began to realize that this is foolish - I shouldn't care what I look like on the outside...
Psalm 139: 14 was a new truth that helped me mend as well as the song More Beautiful You by Jonny Diaz
I wont lie saying that I'm 100 percent confident and comfortable with my appearance but I'm working on it
Friday, June 5, 2009
burnt to a crisp
so last night i knew i was sun burned but this morning i really felt it....my neck, my face, arms and apparently the back of my legs.....the best part is that i will peel then go back to my glowing whiteness!!
i am so thankful that i didn't get a migrane today.
im realizing quickly that when i have young children of my own i will struggle with taking them seriously when they pout because it is the cuttest most pathetic thing ever. i do hope that as a mother i will have as much patience as steph does with her children.
im so stoked to go to helena tomorrow to see the fam....uncles and auntes and the pgas it will be sweet and it will be the first time i see my uncle since his amputation.
i am so thankful that i didn't get a migrane today.
im realizing quickly that when i have young children of my own i will struggle with taking them seriously when they pout because it is the cuttest most pathetic thing ever. i do hope that as a mother i will have as much patience as steph does with her children.
im so stoked to go to helena tomorrow to see the fam....uncles and auntes and the pgas it will be sweet and it will be the first time i see my uncle since his amputation.
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